You’re turning into your Mother, some might say. It’s a trait that merges with your heart and barges right in to stay. Forever.
Last night was one of those – the world stops and your life flashes before you – moments in motherhood.
After soccer practice for my middle child, our almost 3 year old was playing around kicking the ball in the goal with his older brother and Daddy. He was having a great time, kicking the ball, making a goal, and raising his little chubby hands over his head, to cheer, YES, for himself when he proudly made a goal.
The next thing I know, he’s crying and laying under the goal. It wasn’t the normal every day cry, it was a cry that overwhelmed him and you could see the pain/fear in his little eyes. It’s frozen in my mind.
I ran over (not fast enough) and scooped his limp body up in my arms. Breathe! Breathe! What happened, I screamed!?
All I knew was to breathe little puffs of air at him like I did when he was an infant. The next thing I knew he was turning blue, his eyes rolled back in his head, and he passed out as I laid him on my mom’s lap.
Needless to say we all freaked out!
It seemed like an eternity but after about 10 seconds he woke up.
As a Mama to 3 children, that was the first time I’ve ever had such a scare. My whole body was shaking and the adrenaline gripped me and shook me and I couldn’t seem to calm down for hours.
We still don’t know what happened, but we think he hurt his knee and it was a breath holding spell as a natural response to pain/fear.
I can’t count the number times I checked on him during the night. Every time, he lay peaceful, his little hands folded over his chest, as it lifted and lowered, lifted and lowered, lifted and lowered.
Thank you, Jesus.
Each time I praised God for protecting my son.
Needless to say, I had trouble sleeping. I tossed and turned and the only thing I knew to do was recite these verses:
Each time I recited this from memory, as the darkness threatened to grip and overtake me, there was something miraculous that happened.
10 things this experience reminded me of:
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