I truly never thought those words would ever come out of my mouth; “I don’t want to be an angry mom.” I’ve never struggled with anger before.
I want happy moments like these all the time:
Who was I kidding? To think that just because I have never struggled with something like anger in the past, it would not show up on my heart’s stoop one day, unannounced?
So when you think you are standing firm, TAKE HEED. Never think that you are above any sin. I surly did… in a round about way. We are all susceptible to any sin.
That is why it is so very important, dear Mom, to be in the Word of God daily. To have your sins confessed. To be washed in the Word. To be clean and white and pure.
It got me thinking… maybe parenthood and the struggles we face just bring out what is deep within our own sinful hearts. All the crud that is way at the bottom… it comes rising to the surface.
As I swim in Seneca lake on those warm Summer nights, I often see all the seaweed rising to the surface. It floats to the top and collects in one heaping pile of thick gooey yuckiness on shore.
It is a good thing when our sin comes rising to the surface! It is not always pretty, but as the seaweed rises onto the shore of your heart, confess it and get rid of the mess (1 John 1:9). God promises to wash our hearts white as snow!
I am going to read and pray over Psalm 51 every morning. We may not all have sins like adultery or fornication to confess of, like David… but sin is all the same in God’s eyes.
If our heart is darkened by the sin of pride, anger, jealousy, hatred… it is just as bad as murder.
Verses 6 and 7 really hit me:
Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom. Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow.
When God’s power is living and vibrant in our lives, there will be no room for seaweed to collect (at least as much). It will be like the rushing Niagara Falls! I couldn’t help but feel God’s mighty power standing next to this!
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